The Dream of a Godless Sea

It all sprang from my love for her.

We met on the shore at low tide. She wore a schoolgirl uniform and waved to me from a distance. The place was desolate and forlorn. I hastened my steps cautiously, feeling the slanting sunlight warm my face. "Hayasaka, today is another day to catch the sunset!" As I gazed into her eyes again, the sun in her pupils seemed to scorch me anew.

She still wore white socks on the beach. With her pure white shirt, she took on the silhouette of twilight... "You're staring again." She kicked my calf as a penalty, and I didn't want to forget this. Then everything happened as usual, except that she brought a new sake this time. I didn't like the taste very much, it felt like a blob of chaos assaulting my stomach and then scrambling my neurons. She didn't seem to mind, though. She clinked glasses with me and then smiled as she watched me drink in agony. I was more preoccupied with our love, when the moon gradually emerged and she entered the cold hue.

As if cursed by fate, I lost my reason in that moonlight. I clung to her tight, spilling wine on her skirt. We crashed onto the beach like waves. The wet skirt was laid on the still warm sand to dry, and now she was pale and cold. I loved her pale and cold, so I couldn't control myself. But she covered her mouth with her hand and bore it with tears in her eyes. "Hayasaka." She trembled as she called my name. "I love you so much." I kissed the mouth that uttered her love for me. The surging waves peaked at midnight. The moon was veiled by clouds, and the stars quivered and howled. We were shrouded by this sound.

In the final moment of tight embrace, we vowed to love each other like this forever. Then our limp bodies collapsed on the sand and rested until dawn. When she woke up, I still couldn't help licking the sand on her clothes. She scolded me again, and I said it was like my nature, and then promised to help her clean up like a normal person. I forgot to set off last night's fireworks, so I lit them at the spot where we had released our fluids. Before the sky brightened completely, we, who were as deep as the deep horizon and cold-colored, fled from this beach.

After that day, I grew disgusted with this sea. I don't know if it's because I've been there 23 times, or because of that ill-timed fireworks. I regretted and feared, as if sensing that if I went there again, I would be punished by some god.

But there was no other god. Maybe in a blurred consciousness, she whispered in my ear. The sound of the tide receded farther and farther away, and in the same fading memory, her face turned cold. I don't remember when it started, but our images vanished in the blue moment before dawn. Our shadows lost all their light ratio and blended into that Rayleigh scattering.

I woke up. In front of me was a scene that had seen 114514 Epochs, everything was born out of ImportError: No module named '��'

It all sprang from my love for her.

Before dusk came again, I was dazzled by the light reflected from the floor and suddenly wanted to invite her to a popular pub nearby.

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群星目力的夜晚

一切是因对她的爱而生的。

退潮的时候我们在岸上见面，她穿着学生式的制服，离得很远就向我招手。四下空旷得有些寂寥。我迎着那目光谨慎地加快脚步，低角度的日光照得脸上微热。“早坂君，今天又是个遇上晚霞的日子！”再次注视她的眼睛时，瞳孔里的落日似乎又要将我灼烧。

即便是来到沙滩，她依旧穿了白色的小腿袜。连同纯白色的衬衣，带上了名为黄昏的轮廓……“你又在看了。”她踢到我的小腿表示惩罚，我不希望忘记这种事。之后，一切的发生如同惯例，只不过这回她带的是新的烧酒。我不大喜欢那种味道，就像一团混沌冲击了肠胃，而后要打乱神经元的连接。她却并不在意似的，与我碰杯，然后笑着看我遭罪般的饮用。我则更加惦记着与她的爱，当月亮逐渐显影，她进入那冷色调中。

如同命运的诅咒，我在那月光中失去了理智。我抱紧她，酒洒在了她的裙子上。我们如浪花一样拍到沙滩上。湿了的裙子放在尚且温热的沙滩上晾干，现在的她是冷白色的，我深爱着冷白色的她，所以没法控制自己。可是她用手捂着嘴，近于流泪地承受着。“早坂。”她颤抖着叫我的名字，“我十分爱你。”我亲吻这一说出爱我的话语的嘴。翻涌的海浪涨至最高，是在午夜时分。月亮被云遮上，群星震颤着怒号，我们彼此笼罩在这种声音之下。

在最后的紧紧相拥时刻，我们说要一直这样爱着对方。然后瘫软的身躯直接倒在沙滩上，休憩到了黎明。她醒来后，我还是不由自主地舔了她衣物上的沙子。她又斥责我，我说这就像我的天性，然后答应像正常人一样帮她清理。我忘了放昨晚的烟花，把它插在我们曾释放液体的位置点燃了。趁天还没完全亮起来，如那深沉的地平线一样深沉的、冷色的我们，逃离了这片海滩。

那一天之后，我竟对这片海产生了厌烦。不知是因为已经去过23回，还是由于那不合时宜的烟花。我即懊悔又害怕，仿佛感觉到，再去那里时会受到神明的惩罚一般。

可是，并没有其他的神明。或许是在意识模糊时，她曾在我耳边低语。潮水的声音越走越远，在同样远去的记忆中，她的面容变得冷峻起来。我不记得从何时起，回忆中的我们一并消失在天亮前的蓝调时刻。我们的影像失去一切的光比，汇入那片瑞利散射之中。

我醒了。眼前是我已见过114514个Epoch的景色，一切是因 ImportError: No module named '��'

一切是因对她的爱(あい)而生的。

黄昏再次到来之前，我被地板反射的光晃得出神，突然想约她去附近热门的酒馆。